Chapter 3: Role Model
Jason
Chapter 3: Role Model
Life
has a way of making a perfectly normal day seem like you deserve to be the
lowliest scumbag in the universe. Today went perfectly fine, which is extremely
counter-intuitive to what your typical schoolday. How odd. During the trip
home, I predicted that life was gonna fuck me in the ass in the EVENING, since
the day at school was relatively calm. Life is like that: it either makes you
feel so goddamn depressed during the day (to the point where you contemplate
suicide) and then makes the evening uneventful, or makes the schoolday calm,
and proceeds to make your evening a living hell. Think of it like this: There
is an amount of torment that you must inevitably suffer each day, and life
gives it to you in many unexpected ways. For instance, you might have the
greatest evening of your life, but experience the most painful heartbreak of
your life beforehand. In a nutshell, the Lord taketh, and the Lord giveth. It
just seemth that he taketh thingth away more than he giveth thingth.
Today,
good fortune came in the form of a relatively normal schoolday, in return for
an automated gate closing in on me and nearly squashing my ass. Oh, and did I
mention the fact that the internet connection is acting up? Best part is, on
top of all that, I feel bored as all hell. At least until I start watching a
few YouTube videos on people's various “let's play” series, that is. As a
matter of fact, I binge-watch Hearthstone and Dishonored 2
gameplay during the tiny breaks that I give myself after completing a paragraph
of writing this page. OK, NOW I don't feel as bored as I used to be.
Of
course, I should probably know better than to think that all this great shit
will last forever. According to past experiences, Life starts going downhill
just as you begin hoping that good shit will continues to come out of it. When
my parents get home, they'll probably scold me for not sutdying for my exams
and instead prioritizing the creation my book, which is apparently tantamount
to lying down on my bed and scratching my ass. What a fool I was to think that
life was gonna get any better from here. All that life will do is just end up
getting worse, just like it always have, and will always do. God, if the
message you're trying to convey here is that I don't deserve to be anything
other than a useless, lethargic dickhead, I don't know what the hell you're
trying to say. Asshole.
(You
know, I think I might have a better idea than to moan on about your
oh-so-shitty life) Wait, what the fuck? Who was that (It's the author of
this book, smart guy)? Seriously? Then who am I (you, my dear friend,
are just another character in this book)? Hold on, hold on. I'm the author
of this book, so what does that make you? I'm confused here.
(Well,
I think that I might have a pretty hard goddamn time explaining this bit to
you. Think about yourself like this: you're a fictionalized version of me, in
the book that I'm writing right now. I know it doesn't make any sense, but just
try and go along with it anyway) Oooookay then, slow the fuck down (Jesus
Christ, I just told you to go along with-never mind, carry on). So lemme
get this straight: I'm you (that is correct). You're the author of this
book, and therefore also the creator of the universe I'm in (yes...). So
technically speaking, I'm not actually a living, breathing human being, but
instead merely a word on a book page (couldn't have said it better myself.
How do you feel? Is the sensation of existential dread overcoming you now?).
Holy shit. That was...enlightening.
(But
seriously, enough about discussing the inconsequential nature of your
existence. Tell the reader a little about yourself) Very well, I'll tell
you a little about myself, if that's what you guys want. I was born on Octo- (No,
dammit. I meant, tell us a little about yourself right NOW. Skip the boring
shit). Fine, FINE. God. OK, for one, I am not what you'd call a “smart
guy”. I mean, once upon a time, I USED to be smart. And by smart, I mean like,
REALLY goddamn smart (can you please stop abusing the same word over and
over? Out of all people, you should probably know that). As a matter of
fact, I was so frickin' intelligent that back in elementary school, people
would turn to me for assistance on science, math and English. That's right, ME
(you done filling yourself with ego yet? We'd like to move on with your
story here).
But
over time, I've gotten dumber and dumber (glad to hear a bit of honesty).
The boy who was once an all-knowing genius on most academic subjects slowly
transformed into an idiot during his high school years. You know how you're
supposed to be MORE disciplined and shit as you grow up, so that you have
better survivability against the constant onslaught of tasks? Well, that rule
also applies to me, but in reverse; instead of being more intelligent, I can
now say without a doubt that I have turned into one of the most dim-witted
motherfuckers in the entire goddamn YEAR LEVEL. The only skill that hasn't
completely withered up to this day is my English, which helps me get through
one of the many treacherous predicaments I encounter (one subject, mind you,
fucking ONE).
You
know how in most fictional stories, the protagonist is normally this badass,
six-packed, testosterone-filled motherfucker that is capable of performing both
mental and physical feats that would be impossible to do in real life? In
addition, said protagonists are also on the brighter side of the moral
spectrum, doing the “right thing” and always having to face off with the “bad
guy” throughout the course of the story. I fully realize that this character
archetype is a bit of an overused cliche, and yet I use the aforementioned
heroic characteristics as the core traits of the main protagonist in MY story as
well. Do you know why (Ignore him; this is a rhetorical question, so you're
not supposed to answer)? Well, allow me to explain (see?).
Imagine
if the book I was making was a story about my life, my journey to create a book
in the midst of a hellish journey through the barriers of the academical
system. that book would be boring as
hell. As to WHY the book is boring as hell, you may ask? First of all, there
would be the issue of the book's protagonist, who in this case, would be me.
When people hear the words “main character”, the first thing that comes into
mind is a disciplined, charitable, hard-working man who is in a constant,
never-ending battle against a clearly evil and ruthless antagonist. I mean,
just imagine. How disappointed will the readers be when they discover that the
protagonist of the story they're reading is just some frail, pragmatic piece of
shit?
People
don't want something different. OK, scratch that: people want something
different, sure, but at the end of the day, you just go back to the same story,
the same characters, and pretty much the same everything. Take romance, for
example. The plotline follows the same sequence of events, over and over again:
Boy meets girl (or girl meets boy, depending on who the author decides to
choose as the narrator), they spend time together, they realize that they're
made for each other, then some terrible tragedy contests their love, they lose
each other (at this point, the reader starts bawling their eyes out internally
as they frantically breeze through the book with the sole intent of discovering
the ending), and they eventually get back together.
Same
goes for the characters, and not just for the romance genre: As you flip
through the pages of tens (or maybe even hundreds) of books and passively gaze
at the glorious sight of a movie (action, drama, sci-fi, they're all the same),
you'll eventually notice a certain pattern appearing from these tales. Video
games, movies, novels, you name it, I'll stereotype it. That's why in this
world, it's so rare to find a book or entertainment programme that dares to
defy the norms of your typical
“predictable-plot-followed-by-even-more-predictable-ending” story, if you know
what I mean. Once in a while you get some brutally different stories, such as
“The Catcher In the Rye” or “Fight Club”. Hell, throw in the “Stanley's Cup”
episode from South Park while you're at it. All these are stories that dare to
defy the stereotype of your modern-day book that you pick up from the library
near your house or even that Steven Seagal movie you saw with your girlfriend
last week in the cinema downtown (assuming you have one...). Fuck it, this even
applies to Friday the 13th and all those slasher movies that have countless
sequels and prequels and end up getting shat on by the critics over at Rotten
Tomatoes.
Now
don't get me wrong; I love mindless violence, comedy and sex as much as the
next guy, and I honestly would've never brought this topic up had it not been
for me creating my OWN story. Originally, I intended to create a book on how I
created a book whilst simultaneously dealing with the perils that threaten my
mental state (#bookception), but I then realized how much of a terrible role
model I'd be. I mean, look at this fucker: lethargic, hedonistic, ugly... you
name the negative trait, I've probably got it. Can you imagine if I became the
story's main protagonist? Even if I end up making a book about my “school
diaries” or some shit, what would the moral of the story be? To be a lazy piece
of shit who only prioritizing doing the things he likes? Sure, I might've made
a book and everything, but that doesn't automatically mean that the message I'm
trying to convey here is positive. Hell, it doesn't automatically mean that I'M
classified as a good role model.
But
maybe this book doesn't even NEED a good role model. Shit, why not just make
the protagonist an evil-ass bastard? I'll tell you why: it's because I want to
make the book about a fantasized version of the life I'm currently living, a
visualization of a perfect world. OK, fine, I admit it's not exactly a
“perfect” world, but it's...awesome. There's simply no other word for it. In
the fantasized world, everything is as I WANT it to be, as opposed to being
dominate by the unpredictable cruelty of life.
Jesus
Christ, that was tiring. Dude, can I just go back to working on the book now?
I'm dying (not literally, obviously) to discuss the backstory of the in-book
universe, and my parents are yelling at me for “not working on the book I said
I was totally gonna be working on”. Besides, I'm sure that most audience
members will probably throw this book out a goddamn window if I don't start
writing (typing, technically, but you get my meaning) about something that's
actually exciting (Fine, fine. Continue with your story, but remember that
we'll be doing more of this shit in the future. You're not off the hook yet,
amigo). Thank you. I'm sure that the readers are grateful of this course of
action as well (because they get to listen to something that ain't
completely boring as fuck? Yeah, never doubt it).
Look,
can you just shut the fuck up so we can continue (Fine, fine. Just sayin'.
Jeez)? Alright, onto the next chapter, I guess.
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